motivation

It's strange how unmotivated a person can be when there is no drive in their life. All my life I wanted to be that guy who after work never came home, always had something to do, people to see, things to do. I would say I had been pretty successful at that. I volunteer as an advisor to my old college fraternity, I have been taking Salsa dancing lessons for a while now, train for triathlons and other events and hang out with my friends a couple of nights a week leaving just enough time to go grocery shopping, do laundry and occasionally see what's on tv. Except for about the last month, the last month I haven't really felt like doing anything. My frat is on their winter break, Salsa dancing is on winter break and it has been a little cold and my training buddies are doing family things this time of year. So, the only thing I look forward to is going to work. It gives me something to do. Most people can't wait to go home, I can't wait to go to work and I hate leaving. Going home to an empty house (my roommate is back with his parents until after the holiday) with nothing to do sucks. I know there are many things I could do when I get home, but I don't have the motivation to do it. Don't feel like reading, drawing, playing my guitar or much else. It's crazy, we all have heard the saying, when it rains it pours; well now I know why. Energy builds on itself, when bad energy is in your life, it just attracts more and more, until you personally break the chain. I guess I will wait until after the holidays when things pick up again. I think I will take two Salsa Dancing classes, a buddy at work is learning to play guitar, so I will practice with him and I think I will join a softball team in the spring.
"a long decemeber and there's reason to believe, maybe this year will be better than the last..." - Counting Crows