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So I found this girl in my salsa dancing class and asked her out a couple of times. Our second date went very well. I really thought we had hit it off, we really got to know each other well and I found out she has a lot of what I am looking for in a women. Then tonight happened...
Earlier I had met up with Justine for coffee because we hadn't talked in a while. She is hurt and mad that I have found some as she says "so quickly" to start dating and that I am dating someone from the class we are in. She went on a date with a guy before I did with Jennifer, and told me she did, and she is mad at me. So tonight we meet to discuss being able to hang out. I told her I would want to spend sometime with Jennifer, she said "that's fine, I don't really plan on hanging around with you tonight much anyway." Wow I thought, that put my worries away, I could spend the night and talk to Jennifer and really keep things on track before she left on her vacation out of the country for three weeks. Justine pretty much spent the whole night, right next to me!!!!! I wasn't able to spend anytime with Jennifer. When the dinner was served, I just got up and left the restaurant and walked around Pasadena. I had felt like I was being stabbed in the stomach and in the chest. Things had been going well with Jennifer before tonight, and in my mind they where getting worse every minute. I came back to the club just before the dancing started and again Justine would come right next to me. I danced with Justine, because our instructor came up and told us we should get out on the dance floor, and it's not really a suggestion, when she say's it, you do it. so Justine and I danced. I was able to dance the next song with Jennifer though. It was good for about the first 3 seconds and then my mind went blank and I lost all rythm. I thought I had brought my "A" game, but it was as far away from that as possible. I find one of the best connections I have ever had with a women and I blow all in just a night. I went from feeling best I have felt in a long time on our second date, to feeling the most depressed I have yet. All I am, everything I do is for one thing and that thing is to find someone to share my life and my heart with.
You know, when you end a relationship, just end it all.
I told Jennifer to call me when she gets back to the country, we will see what happens then...